I debated with myself about if I wanted to post this or not. But this blog is about my experiences in NYC. Good and bad. So.. on that note, I am sad to say I am no longer employed at the hedge fund. Due to reasons I don’t want to get into, they decided not to keep me. I am understandably very emotional about it. I’m mad, and sad, and generally upset. I am lucky enough to have a new job lined up at less pay, which means I will be working a second job again.
I’m not happy about it, but its life. I have to keep going and realize that although I may not see the reasons now, this is probably better in the long run for me. Its at a great company, and its in the field I want. All pluses. I have to work for what I want to achieve, things aren’t going to be given to me. So, I am starting at the bottom, and determined to work my way up.
It may sound horribly girly, but in order to get me out of my funk, I made a list of things to be happy about. I listed at least ten but can think of more. This isn’t the end of the world, this is the beginning of a new chapter for me. I need to be excited. I allowed myself to wallow in self pity, and now its time to pick myself up, realize I have it easy in comparison to others, (Although I think you should never compare yourself to others. Your struggles may seem inconsequential to others, but they are YOUR struggles. Your allowed to feel how you want, don’t let others judge you) and keep going.
So, Monday I will have my first day, and I’ll let you know how it goes. I am also looking for a weekend job, I think I may have one lined up. I’ll keep posting.
Also, after close to a three year hiatus I started writing the rest of my book. It’s amazing how easily it all came back to me. I think everything I have been going through has helped me relate more with my main character. Very exciting! My new challenge is to write 500 words a day. That’s either my book, my blog, or my private journal. I missed a couple of days wallowing, so I have a lot to make up for!
Always remember, life will give you a hundred reasons to cry, it’s up to you to show the world you have a thousand reasons to smile.